I’m trying to find a small still voice of the Lord
Through my endless petitions and pleas
In the midst of the congregation
In each challenge and burdens
In every rise and fall of my emotions
Still, a hollow, deafening silence.
Little did i knew that it’s not in the situation i am into, which his voice is audible
For all these times He is speaking so loud!
It’s the issues of my heart
How to discern His voice like a child hearing his parents as they call his name
How fool am I
Been busy murmuring in prayer
How could I
Fill my empty heart with renewed joy
I rather walk in the beach feeling soft sands underneath my feet in each step, with soft waves rushing to and fro
And reflecting about the meaning of life, of where i came from and where to go
I can conclude like the preacher once said that ‘everything is meaningless!’
I can’t imagine myself thinking deeper than that!
One lesson I learned in the book of ecclesiastes
That we have to love God with all our hearts for it’s a duty of a man (paraphrased)
Such love, not fear or intimidation, but pure love
Keeps me going in this journey called life
I’m not a ‘holier than thou’ person
I’m cool and flexible, don’t get me wrong
Deep inside is a longingness to live
In the beauty of His holiness
…am still searching for His whisper
