A Bit of Breathing Room


I’m practicing the pause lately. Whenever I feel fed up, I find time eating outside. 

It is my second time this month to delve in eating pizza. I find it effective, stress-reliever. By the way, it’s all you can eat, so suit yourself!

Later I will go back to work.

I hate this, wanting to write but preoccupied with things. 

I promise, I will have a writing marathon next week. 🙂

Here Come Better Days


I can feel it. Not just a make-believe feeling. God, in His righteousness, will shower His goodness and His love – all the days of my life (i feel like singin’).

Of all challenges I’d been through, got into, and will encounter, these are incomparable to all the riches and glory God is in store for me. 

Malapit na akong yumaman, pera na lang kulang 🙂 #credit_to_FBmemes

Thank You Lord for developing my character, for the realization that I’m well-loved, and the fact that i’m not the only one on this boat hehe.. 

To You God be all the the glory, forever.

Why is it so tough to move forward?


Lately I’m pondering about this question. Then my mind sails afloat the sea of thoughts. I then find myself trolling around scenarios of “what if?” “why not?” exchange – like a tennis ball. 

Tradeoff is the main factor. If I move forward, I will leave point “A” and embrace point “B.” There’s no turning back, I have to burn the bridge! Lest I might turn to a pillar of salt (inaalat tayo *wink*). I will leave all comforts and perks in point “A,” and start a new adventure. The mere thought thrills me. But sweet journey come with a price, I’m not sure I can afford.

By the way, it’s about leaving my job.

I spoke with my wife about it. She told me that if I’m not happy anymore I can always go home. She added: “God will not forsake us.” Well, that’s comforting 🙂

So I sought my Lord Jesus Christ.. and He led me in 1 Corinthians Chapter 13. Although it’s a popular chapter, it never occurred to me that I’ll meditate on this. Two insights strike me, I’m hoping these can contribute to you guys, especially if you’re in crossroads of decision-making. 

v. 8: Love Never Fails

Why I’m so hesitant to move? Because I’m afraid to fail. Do I still love my job? If so, I’ll never fail. If not, it’s time to move on. That’s the practical approach. 

Subjective/spiritual approach is this: if I put my faith in God, who is love, I shall never fail. 

So long as I have love, I can stand the test of time. (This is the point where I want to scream like Augustus in the movie Gladiator: “are you not entertained?!!”… and by the way I want to face my boss when delivering that – haha). 

v. 11. Think like a man

I’m not referring to a movie with that title, sorry 🙂 

I have to think maturely. Thinking outside the ‘box’ so to speak. This means putting aside personal feelings, and weigh the situation as logical and objective as possible. No grumbling, grudge or envy. Better to overthink about consequences rather than be surprised with unforeseen exigencies. No room for mistakes here, the price I’ll pay is high enough for me (paraphrased from Karen Carpenter’s i know i need to be in love #credit).

I’m still stuck. 

I want to reflect in v. 12. This is what I’m seeing now..blurry, uncertain. But in God’s perfect time, everything will fall in it’s proper place. This is just a cliffhanger, the end will justify the pain it took to get us there (from Relient K’s song “Let It All Out.”).

Verse I’m clinging onto: Romans 8:28 “…ALL things work TOGETHER for GOOD to them that LOVE God, to them who are called according to His purpose.”

God in Action


Previously, I’m confessing frustrations with my  current job. Surely, it’s a sign of burning out. Nevertheless, my faith is unbreakable and I’m confident that my welfare is in God’s hands. I just need to do my part. Me and my loving and ever-supportive wife came into mutual agreement to execute two emotional responses and two monetary responses. And our efforts paid off. All glory to God.

Emotional Responses

  1. Pray – we spoken openly to God, specifically discuss our prayer requests.
  2. Wait patiently – my wife is my constant reminder to wait patiently. Sometimes we have to wait because that’s our only option. But having a patience is another level.

Monetary Responses

  1. Tithe – we sometimes neglect paying our tithes. Or at least delaying the payment. Delayed obedience is disobedience. It’s not easy to be faithful in tithing if we have good factors to consider. But we learned to prioritize God, and as a result, everything is being provided by God. Let’s initiate the leap of faith. 
  2. Seed – put a seed in your offering. Label it. Say ‘this is for the car!’ We are not encouraging you to be materialistic, it’s just the concept of being specific. Of course you have to be pure in motive, as God checks your heart, not your seed’s amount. It’s fun to experience God’s hands orchestrating your situation in your favor, particularly in granting your requests.

Just this morning, I had a closed-door meeting with my boss. I thought I will receive a scolding 🙂 Instead, I was given a token of appreciation for all my hard works, assuring me that they are aware of my extra efforts to get the job done. And I was granted payment for all the hours I will spend working beyond office hours. 

Well, this is just a beginning. I want this to be an encouragement to everyone (kaway kaway Jai hehe) that He’s not finished with you yet. May magandang plano ang Panginoon. 

I Really Need to Declutter


I’m an “organized” wannabe. I desire to keep everything in order. But I’m lazy to organize. I envy organized people, i mean the real deal. They must possess some kind of superpowers 🙂

I want to clean my working table, I want my post organized by categories, I want my devotional journal neat and tidy, I want my exercise routine as religiously followed as possible, I want to track my expenses (oh, how many apps has I installed/uninstalled?), I want to keep track of my prayer list and my bucket list.

I should start decluttering my working table before I lose my sanity.

Another Day in the Office


I am starting my day slowly, sipping my hot coffee, checking email… nothing new.

I hate surprises. I was caught off-guard with our client’s requirements that I failed to see! Hairs on the back of my forehead started to rise. I knew it, something’s wrong.

My once slow start accelerated to higher gear. Next thing I know, my coffee gone cold, my lips went dry, my stomach got starved. I died, came back to life because I cannot die this time, then  died again, then resurrected. I cannot pass out not until I submitted our requirements.

I have to wrap up everything and be ready at 5pm, and I have to do everything in my power to make it happen. So I did what the usual sane people would do: I closed my eyes and ran like crazy 🙂

To cut the story short, I arrived at client’s reception desk at around 5:15pm. Pretending I’m not late, I casually approached a receptionist – lovely lady named wynna (don’t know if I spelled it right). I presented my documents while catching my breath. I was motioned to sit down, take some rest, and recollect my sanity hehe.

The receptionist sings. Being an expert in evesdropping, I listened. In the thinnest of tone, I am able to pick up the ‘Jesus’ in the song. She’s a believer (not belieber, grow up!*wink). I’m in the Middle East for so long, but I can’t get enough of excitement whenever I come across with fellow expat sharing the same faith. We have a cool conversation which is the first time today I’ve got one. I’m so focus with my client’s requirements that I moved heaven and earth to make it happen. And such a relief that I felt having accepted by our client. So prior to that, nothing seems to matter.

I’ve got a short webchat with my loving wife and cute son. I may have lack some things, but when I speak to my wife and son, I could not ask God for more. Except food of course, am starved.

Heading back, I’ve waited for my two colleagues who will join me in the car way back home. The thing is, these two gentlemen are so caught up with their conversations, that they did not include me. Rude, so to speak. I just sit silently, saving my english for rainy days hehe. I casually stare my smartphone, reading Robert Ludlum’s  “the bourne.” I have to admit,  I enjoyed reading than watching the actual movie, or listening to the two jerks who put me in an awkard situation haha. OP (out of place).

I went home fulfilled. It’s a challenging, tiring day. I can take rest, but can’t go to sleep. I can’t help but thank God for this day. I’ll be forever grateful.

Let Not Your Past Dictate Your Future


This one’s for those labelled as misfits out there.

Had you ever felt an emptiness? Vague? Felt like you’re a failure? Like you didn’t lived out with people’s expectations in which sometimes somehow You set a standard for the first place? Worry not, you’re not alone.

Look at me. Well, I failed in numerous aspects, but i’ve got the face value -haha. Allow me to share some of my experiences in which life’s failures taught me lots of lessons, to be where I am now – still handsome (i know you heard me first time, i know).

Being a college dropout, need to say more? I can’t help but to have an insecurity built all around me. But I have Jesus. I may sound unfair of bringing my faith in the table, however I don’t have much under my sleeve. While my classmates are busy finishing their degree, I am busy working all day, if not sulking away. I will be a hypocrite if I did not envy them. Then God taught me one strategy: if I can’t beat them with their diploma, I’m going to beat ’em with skillset. So I focus on learning new skillset, crafting it, and mastering into perfection. All my efforts are paid off. Even today, people are being amazed of my skills which I humbly and shyly refer to as ‘due to years of working.’ 

On one occasion, I broke someone’s heart. It’s a failure in handling a relationship. Many contributing factors popped up, however, cultural norms (wherein people favors a woman) – ended myself guilty as charged. I took the blame. But that did not stopped me from loving again. I knew God must’ve His reasons why I experienced that. He should have! My pain is real. 

You know, there’s a tendency to hide in a cloak of invisibility. I’m not referring to some kind of superpowers. It’s the pain behind a smile, bitterness behind cheerful aura, insecurities buried in the deepest of our being. That’s a cloak of invisibility. The drawback? no one seems to notice, no one seems to care EXCEPT those who went through, or are still undergoing the pain you are into. 

Here’s where we are good at. We can blend in our surroundings, while God in His lovingkindness, is shaping our bruised heart. Yes, we are tired. We never wished for it for the first place. We did our best, given our all, but we’d fallen short. Listen to this: you have to focus on the growth factor. Believe that everything is essential for your character development. And keep believing that God is preparing you into something – in which you will fit in, in due time.

If there’s one lie you should not believe, is the voice that telling you ‘You’re a failure.’ We all fail, but don’t let that setback hold you back from reaching your destiny. God, throughout history, called people who are notoriously/horribly failed. He called the doubtful (Thomas), the proud (Peter), the coward (Gideon), the insecured (Moses) – to fulfill important missions. Inspite their failures/shortcomings, God thought they’re fit for the job! So let God humor the humanity once again by choosing YOU as important piece to complete a mission that in due time, God will call you to fulfill.

Look at me, I am a school dropout, yet have a job. I once believed a failure in relationship, yet happily married with a son. If there’s one trait that did not changed is my confidence with my face value (laughs). Yeah, that’s what we do, we laugh – genuinely.

If you are still reading up to this part, let me tell you this: God is not finished with you yet. 

A Short Visit on Our Main Office in Dubai


An opportunity to visit our main office surfaced when I’ve been invited by one of my boss to attend a trainig relevant to our department.

Arriving late in hotel makes me want to doze off to deep sleep. Gloomy ambience and comfy bed invited me to enter in a new portal – a so-called dreamland 🙂

I woke up the next day feeling refreshed, ready to face the world once again.

Our company driver Mirshad (if i recall correctly) picked us up.

I shared a ride with two big bosses 🙂 en route to our office location. Their topic is way above my desk. I can just nod and laugh with them. Occassionally I comment, just to keep them into thinking that I’m a part of the conversation haha. 

Training is rescheduled at 11am. Many lessons will be covered and I’m keen to absorb all information and apply it to Qatar’s commercial dept. I thank God for this opportunity not just to be trained but also to meet fresh faces, new people..these colleagues that I communicate thru email. 🙂

Joevet is beautiful always. She extended a courtesy of touring me around the building. Manu thanks, my dear.

I finally got a chance of meeting the entire commercial team. It’s fulfilling actually.

Melody is gorgeous and lovely. She’s easy to be with, due to the fact that we’re conversing regularly thru phone i guess. It’s a pleasure meeting her.

Then there’s beautiful Rosalie. I somehow missed her, just seeing her brought back the last time she went to our office – way back 2014 if I’m not mistaken. I also met sir Ferdinand, he’s polite as well,wearing a warm smile. Oh, I forget  the name of the other lovely lady 🙂

Ma’am Bhavna is very approachable. Very professional and courteous. I really love to spend time with her. I knew at first glance that I can learn a lot from her. 

Meeting madam Fleur and madam Annene brought me back to my comfort zone. I somehow had established working relationship with them that we all happy to see each other 🙂 I knew I’m telling the truth haha 

I can go on list of incredible people I personally met, but I have to cut from here. 🙂 Over all, it’s a polite, professional working environment. Thanks for warm welcome.

I’m looking forward having snapshot photo with them. It’s an experience worth traveling. 

*Update: i managed to have few snapshots with some of my colleagues. See photos below.

L-R: Ben, Melody, Me (no gel hehe), Joevet

Melody, Me, Joevet

With Brian

I can personally say that this is the missing piece of the puzzle. I requested God to give me something – a drive, something to put my passion with. Previous frustrations and bumps brought me down on my knees *emo* I’m glad that God in His mercy worked in my heart to realign my perception. I am eager to advance my career, and I gained confidence by meeting these colleagues in our  office. I can’t wait to collaborate with them, to put more efforts to finish tasks together. I’m in 🙂

As for the rollout, surely it’s not a cakewalk. We will struggle at first, but I know that the  end value is worth our precious investments.

I opt out on detailing about the training, for confidentiality.

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Dinner is hosted by my boss. Let the photos below do the talkin’ 🙂

With Joevet

With the gang 🙂

It’s worth sharing that in the midst of our dinner, an elderly woman approached Joevet, hold her arms and lovingly whispered to her *paraphrased*:

As a woman of 80’s, I congratulate you for raising up the flag of women. Thank you for standing out!

 Before Joevet can respond, she sweetly smiled and casually walked away. It took us few seconds to react. The reason why she said that is because Joevet is the only woman in the table full of gentlemen. Kudos for you, Joevet! 

That’s all for now. Thanks for reading!

Beat the Odds in Your Life


Inspired by the TV Series Game of Thrones

Life is a path of endless options. Every choice we make lead us into new horizon, heights, experiences. Each road, narrow or wide, keeps us moving forward. I’m not in a position to judge to which is right or wrong in every crucial decision we choose, we’re all right in our own ways. Whatever we are into, always remember that we’re responsible for every minute detail that we do. Same goes with decision-making whenever we face trials of all kinds. Below are some practical guide in overcoming various obstacles in life. I hope it can help you in any way possible.

Pray

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This sounds skeptical to some people. It works in such a way that you don’t feel alone. There’s Someone to the rescue, way greater than superman 🙂 The thing is, it will boost your moral judgment (when God factor is involved, you’ll play your game fair and square). My personal call is, I have to win with righteousness. If I fail for righteousness, I’m pretty sure I can live with that.

Plan

26896970102_d171e7b966_bA wise man once said that “Failure to plan is planning to fail.” This will eliminate one crucial factor – the element of surprise. This will give you ahead of your game. Think each possible scenario, keep sharp. If you’re in this kind of habit, it’ll be a muscle memory. Follow your guts. When tackling an important issue, you have to arrive in a certain plan to beat the adversary and finish so strong. It’s your life on stake here.

Murphy’s Law

26387266454_aec9bb2b45_m“Anything that can go wrong, will go wrong.” It’s a Trojan Horse sneaking in a backdoor, determined to ruin your well-laid (assuming) plan. That’s why we all have a so-called contingency plan. Keep this alternative approach solid, this last-minute call will decide between success or failure. Good for you if you succeeded, you must be tough! If you fail, pick a lesson out of it. It’s a perfect time not to fall down in slumber. When you’re in rock bottom, mark that pitfall then climb back – never to fall in the same well again. If you fall once, that’s okay. Twice in the same trap, you’ve been tricked. The only way to get rid of a trickster is to learn a lesson (in a hard way) in that particular situation.

Test the Water

26924602511_c3993cfdc4_zDon’t just plunge to your death (yet). Do what programmers usually do. They do some coding, compile, then they test – waiting for error. Simplicity is beauty. Provoke, see how it retaliate against you.

Hint: water’s depth depends on your depth. If it’s shallow, you have more experience to overcome. If it’s really deep, then your character is deep enough! That’s a compliment. You’ll feel what David felt in Psalm 42:7 in which deep calls unto deep. It’s  like you’re halfway in dealing with one problem and then another tough problem comes into view.

Call it fate, but I believe God will not give you problem more than you can handle [1 Cor. 10:13].

Reward Yourself

26924871961_2303f8cba0You deserve it. You’re human. Your mind can fool you into thinking that you’re indestructible, and before you know it you’re succumbing into depression. Keep yourself mentally and emotionally strong. Aside from having a positive outlook, rewarding yourself rejuvenates your passion. Think of it as a way of rebooting yourself. Pull out yourself from your usual busy schedule. Spend some quality time with your family, or cheat yourself with cuisine you love most. Whatever it is that you enjoy, go for it! You’ll be refreshed, ready to face the world again.

Life is supposed to be an exciting journey. It’s not easy to stay focus and maintain our composure in the midst of battle, but there’s where your character is being forged. Deciding under pressure is crucial for you, you’ve better be prepared. Out of all points I’ve given, prayer is the most important factor.

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